Grace Cottingham November 12, 2026 Website: meonics.one
Hi, wonderful people. You’re a special people, you who are listening to me, to share with me my body, my blood, my table, my essence, my energy—what I am, who I am, to be I am.
This is a special day, the revealing of the revelation of I am in a new way with new people.
My name is… I’m still figuring out my name. I was born as Theodore Joseph Cottingham. And growing up, even in grammar school, people started calling me Ted. So I went by Ted most of my life—50 years, I guess.
And then in my quest to know God—to know God and to know Jesus, not just about Jesus, but to know Jesus in the power of the resurrection and the fellowship of his sufferings—you know, I wanted to know. If I want to know someone and I have the ability, the connections, the relationship—if I want to know someone, I may be interested in reading a book about them, but not limiting that so that our relationship is formed around a book. Gosh.
When I married my wife, Barbi, and I, we had two children. She’s not in this life on this plane, visible energy. But Amy and Christopher—I don’t want them to know me only through my writings, through my books. I’ve written two books. I’ve written several thousand documents. I’m 75. No, there’s an intimacy.
What does that have to do with my name? My name is Grace. Well, actually, at this very moment, my legal name is Grace Cottingham, because I changed it. Because so many times as I have prayed, surrendered, listened, channeled—whatever you would like to call it—as I share the table of one with the existence of what is, that which is unknowable, that which is infinite, eternal, immortal, there came a season where repeatedly, 10 years ago, “My name is Grace. I am Grace,” and it came forth so many times.
And so many times I have channeled about The Feminine Divine and that there is no new birth without a birth—a birther, a birth, a newborn, a baby that is formed in the womb.
What does all this have to do with what my name is? Do I want to share all these details with you just so that you will think about me a certain way or know my story? No. I want you to know your story. And this is who I am and why I sit here: for you to know your story, not just reflect on mine, even to have an intimate account of my history. I’m not just a historical figure, or am I you?
So many people have represented God to each other. It’s a problem of massive proportion—epidemic, pandemic religion. Religion speaking for God, and all the protagonists or the pursuers of God looking for somebody to teach them about God, about God, rather than letting God give you a new name.
So as I channeled and taught every day, and recorded, posted, shared the revelations that came through me that began in March of 2003—I’ve talked about that many times—more and more words came through me about The Feminine Divine. The Feminine Divine. And please make no mistake about it: I know there are many, many people who believe in the divine masculine, and there are many people who talk about the divine feminine, and that the divine feminine is equal to the divine masculine. That is not what I believe. That is not what I’ve been given. That’s not what I share. That’s not what I teach. That is not correct according to the voice that I no longer call Lord, because it’s not a voice. The voice of God is not a voice. The voice I’m hearing as I speak that leads me along this very path as I speak to you is not my intellect driving me.
I am letting. I am connecting. I am collaborating. You are seeing me in an exchange of energy. I mean, what else do I call it? You can call it the Spirit if you want to—the Spirit of God, the Spirit of love. But you’re seeing it in action, and this is what I am. I am these words. I am this energy. I am this interaction, begging you so many years to be it, instead of study it, instead of creating something else.
My name is Grace Cottingham. My name is Theodore Joseph Cottingham. But I have many names. And if I tell you my name to share with you my name like a common human, I don’t know—I don’t know anymore which name to use. My legal name? My spiritual name? What’s the difference? Why differentiate it? You see, there’s just so much more to the story of all of these things about who we are than what orthodox anyanity wants to claim.
So see, really, sitting here at this moment, I don’t know. No, I don’t know with certainty. I don’t know what to tell you my name is. I was born Theodore Joseph Cottingham. But in 2016, there were so many times: “Born again, born again. A birth, a birth.” There’s a womb. If there’s a birth, there’s a womb. And there is a baby. There is a delivery. There is an event that takes place after a process, whether you call it copulation, intercourse, or intimacy with the Spirit.
You see, and I’ve had—I’ve lived with this dilemma for so long, so many dilemmas. I’ve channeled, I’ve listened, I’ve learned, I’ve taught, I’ve yearned, I’ve begged, I’ve cried, I’ve pleaded, I’ve damned, I’ve cursed, because I haven’t walked an easy path. I didn’t want to know about God; I wanted to know God. And if God was a man, had a beard, I wanted to touch his whiskers.
And then in 2016, I had all of these words about The Feminine Divine. I’ve had so many channelings that talked about The Feminine Divine—the supremacy of The Feminine Divine. Make no mistake about it. You’ll find it unmistakably, many times, in a series of my communications 10 years ago. And I said so many times about, “I am Grace. I am a woman. I am a woman in childbirth. I am a woman, and this new being is forming in me—not my belly, but my consciousness. In my consciousness, I am birthing the new me, not limited to my physical awareness.”
And I have all these channelings that have come through me. It’s really—it’s been euphoric so many times, and it’s resulted in a lot of painful experiences, a lot of painful circumstances.
But in 2016, I changed my legal name while living in Oklahoma to Grace Cottingham and began dressing as a woman. Gave all my wardrobe away—I mean all my male socks, underwear, coats. I didn’t have deep pockets, believe me; I hardly had any income at all. Went down to the dollar store, bought me some dresses.
But see, I was not unaware of Isaiah. Wasn’t he the one that went naked for three years? God asked him to go naked. Naked. Naked! You can find it; you can read it yourself if you have a Bible. I am quite confident that anybody who is a Christian who is not well acquainted with studying Isaiah would say, “God would never tell you to go naked for three years.” Well, check it out.
Maybe God is not who you think it is. Maybe God has not been represented very well by the clergy, the patriarchy, those who say woman is made from the rib of a man. You know, maybe the Bible isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. Maybe we just haven’t understood it. Maybe the primary interpreters of the Bible have—maybe they use it for their own purposes, to unify a country, as a political tool. Maybe they were all sincere and did just the best they could.
But I don’t want to guess about it. I want to know without a doubt. I want to know definitively, and I will pay the price. I understand Jesus learned through the things that he suffered. I don’t know the reference; you can find it—Revelation, I think.
But see, all of this God stuff, it permeates so many cultures of the world. And I suggest to you, religion reduces us to a human race of rubble, dust. We don’t know who we are. We don’t know our power. We’ve let religion define us to us. We’ve read books, we prayed, we pleaded. Different cultures, people do different things—cut themselves, scar themselves, pierce themselves, all in some demonstration of their dedication.
So am I Grace? Am I Theodore? You know, at this given moment—10 years after I changed my name to Grace and dressing as a woman for less than a year, and then changing it back to Theodore for 10 years, and then doing it again where earlier this year, again, 10 years later, I have so many words, so many channelings, so many times I’ve shared with you: “I am Grace.” I’ve shared about the new birth, redefining the new birth, redefining who you are, redefining God, redefining sin, telling you, sharing with you.
There’s no fear in perfect love. And if there’s no fear in perfect love, anything that creates fear is not of love. The fearmongers who say, “It’s a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God”—ah. And as I have channeled, as I have lived this for so many years, I have shared with you many times that it seems very apparent that many times I’ve shared with you things that conflict with each other.
I’ve let, and I’m not perfect; I’m not the perfect one. I think about that sometimes when I think about all the words that I have about starting a school. I have hundreds of messages like this, hundreds that speak of a school—a school where people would come to learn directly from God, no longer needing a teacher. And you can find that prophesied in your Bible if you look for it, where you no longer need man to teach you, but God will teach every person directly.
But who is God? Is God male or female? Or is God both? Or is God neither male nor female? Or does it matter? And maybe what God is does not even have a gender like we think of it—a binary gender, just because it’s mentioned in Genesis.
Wow. See, I had no idea I would say any of this. But I’m not afraid of a stray word. See, I’m not afraid of teaching you wrong because I’m teaching as I teach. I teach as I learn, I learn as I teach, I share with you, I let. And I have many assurances in these words beginning in 2003 that I’ve shared with you, where the energy that I speak of, that I speak with, that I share with you, that you can learn from, says, “Fear not. Fear not anything. Don’t fear making an error, a stray word, speaking a stray word.” Because what did I—I read it just a few days ago: “I will come and I will caressingly correct you.”
This energy I communicate with, that I interact with, that I share with you, does not fit the picture of the male God that patriarchy preaches in orthodox Christianity. So I am not a Christian.
So what does all this have to do with your name? Truth is very costly. Truth is a flow. Truth creates. Creation is iterative. Creation responds to the creator. Creation is energy. The creator is energy. And what I share with you is that you are the creator of you.
My name? Right. So 10 years ago, I gave away all my clothes, bought a few dresses at the dollar store. And you can find recordings—hundreds of them on this YouTube channel—of me in a dress 10 years ago talking about The Feminine Divine, and not just once: dozens, multiple dozen, maybe several hundred. But the long and the short of that is, boy, it wasn’t easy to go naked for three years. It was no joy ride. Or am I just talking about the few months that I dressed as a woman living in Tulsa? That was hard. Wow. The piercing, the piercing prejudice, the feelings of condemnation from people you care about as well as people who don’t know you. Wow, it was a real learning experience.
But I couldn’t sustain it. And there’s much more to the story, and there’s many details I’ll share and many I probably won’t. So many preachers speak about glory to glory. If you want to know the truth, you won’t find it in your Bible. Though there’s a lot of stories, a lot of words, a lot of paragraphs that can teach you a lot about it, none of that brings forth the new birth.
Hear me well, make no mistake about it. I’m correcting 2,000 years of Christianity—or am I bringing the new birth to be birthed now by you, who will name you with your new name, your new name, and tell you: you can live in a temple not made with hands that you never need leave, and your new name will be written across your forehead with a white stone? Are you willing to roll back the stone? Lazarus, Jesus, your name—are you willing to have your new name?
This is not a bunch of random words. This is yielded energy, submitting to an energy of unconditional love to share with you, that you can learn by talking, you can learn by speaking. You can connect. Connect—how many times have you heard me say “connect” this year? Hundreds, hundreds. If you’re willing to connect, and you connect with a surrender, you connect with a yielding, you connect with a motivation—a motivation that does not drive you to comply with the past, but a motivation to know unconditional love intimately, there’s intimacy, you see.
If there’s a new birth, there’s a new creation. And it’s not whether you want to call it man or woman. We no longer have to be anthropomorphic—anthropomorphize it to give it a gender. Creation is a flow, and you are creating creation as we speak. As you listen to me talk about the dilemma of my new name, sometimes even now today, people—playing pickleball, whatever, coffee shop—say, “Hi, Grace.” And still, I’m not used to that name. And even in recent weeks, there are times more and more it doesn’t seem like my name, but it is my legal name, because here 10 years later, I changed my legal name again because I had hundreds and hundreds—day after day, week after week, month after month—”I am Grace. I am woman. I am in the childbirth of me.“
You see why I say I’m not a Christian? I’m not trying to conform or comply with stuff that they have codified in concrete and have taught people for eons: “God is this, God is that, God wants this, God wants that.” Phooey, phooey, fum, fum. They don’t know how much they don’t know. They haven’t paid the price. They haven’t gone naked for three years. They haven’t changed how they dress. Have you? Are you willing to? If you’re not willing to, why are you so stiff-necked?
I’m me. I’m Grace Cottingham sitting here, at least my legal name. Maybe I’ll change it back to Theodore. I don’t know. That’s not the issue. The issue, my issue, my blood, my bone, my blood-bone words, the DNA of my words—all that glory-to-glory crap, good marketing. A lot of marketing is not true. A lot of stories that substantiate, corroborate, validate, verify are not true.
When you want to know the truth about God, about becoming born again, it is the most costly thing you will ever do. There is no vicarious atonement. You don’t need a Messiah, Savior, King. Friends, I know a lot of you will not want to believe this, and I understand. You cannot know the truth—you cannot know it—unless you become it. You will always be knowing about it. You will know it through your thought, rather than having birthed it.
There’s no shortcut. There are many people who want to give you the shortcut, the formula. They have figured out the algorithm they’ll give you for $19.95 a month, a subscription to their wisdom that causes you to think every month, every week—you go to church every week to get an injection of thought so that you keep thinking that way. You will never even know what the new birth is, no matter if you study your lights out, no matter if you give your life to God, you give your life to the nomenclature, the lexicon, the diction and grammar where you speak, where you study at seminary, where you get multiple advanced degrees in theology. That’s all study about a theology. That is not the truth. You cannot separate the truth from becoming it.
We speak with each other in words about it, but there’s more to the story of the consciousness of one.
A few days ago, I began to share with you the first few messages that I call the Covenant of Grace. I’ve changed the name of it multiple times. I’ve called it in the past—before, there was a season I called it Theodore’s Covenant—over 3,000 messages. And see, just like I was going to share with you today, and I had thought I was open to going through them, because there’s so much value in them, just like there’s so much value in the Bible. But if you study the Bible and you interpret the stories according to orthodox Christianity, you will never know the new birth. You will think in your thought—your thinker, thoughter, thinker—your thought, your ego, that you’ve complied, that you’ve brought forth a new birth because you did the right thing, you said the right words, like an incantation you rub to the lamp like a genie.
Friends, there’s more to the story. In my surrender to begin dressing as a woman and change my legal name to Grace in Tulsa 10 years ago, and all that brought forth that I experienced, just after a few months I thought, “I can’t do this. I simply can’t do this.” I literally took all my dresses, all my feminine attire and gave it away and bought new clothes. And you would think then I felt relief, right? Peace, peace? No. The conflict was worse than ever. And you can see it in my eyes in the recordings if you go back and study them that are online on YouTube.
And I dealt with that, and I am transparent before you for you to be transparent with you. When I began my quest to know God, I didn’t know how to be transparent, even with God, even with me—to actually bring forth words, audible expressions of something, audible expressions of feelings, of energy.
So what a dilemma. I had already changed my legal name in Tulsa 10 years ago to Grace Cottingham, bought dresses, started dressing. Wow, I was naive. I was terribly naive, and I had to grow up. And sometimes we grow up kicking and screaming against the pricks. We want to be comfortable. We want to think we are in reality. We want to think we’re safe, that we’re not vulnerable. We don’t want to volunteer to go through the lion’s den, do we? We don’t want to volunteer to go through the fiery furnace. Volunteer to go butt-naked for three years? Dress as a woman? Dress as a man?
You see, when you want to know truth, you’re not going to find it outside of you. It won’t be found in what you call the scriptures, no matter how much you study or seek eternal life—a blessing to know God. No.
The old covenant—I’m going to define it this way today—the old covenant is everything about God external. The New Covenant is all about God internal. Ego comes along and says, “External God, you bow down, become a follower, serve, say these words, do these things, and accept what something outside of you has done for you.” But my friend, that’s a lie. God has given you what God is that is perfect and unconditional love. And it does not come with any dose of fear. And you need no faith at all.
All the faith message, all the prosperity message—that’s all based on ego. It’s all based on want, want, want, want. The eye of man, woman, humanity, the eyes in our head, what we physically see of this universe—never satisfied. You get a million dollars, what do you want? Two. You get two, what do you want? Four.
The New Covenant is about the infinite, not the compliance of the finite. What I teach, what I share with you, The School of One—nobody can bring you a genie, a magic lamp, and tell you exactly the incantation to make the genie come out and make your life glory to glory, prosperous, where you’re accepted.
So when I changed my name back to Theodore Cottingham—well, when I had given away all my male clothing, bought dresses, and found out I couldn’t do it, I couldn’t sustain it, I began so many experiences that were so painful for me. I was naive. I was immature. I’m not saying I’m not now; it’s just I was more so then.
So I gave all my dresses away, bought men’s clothing again. And the intensity of the turmoil was so much that several weeks later, I did it again. I know it sounds—it may sound utterly ridiculous, stupid, unbelievable. I gave away all my male clothes again, and went and bought dollar store dresses again, until I could not deal. I couldn’t deal with the hurt, the prejudice. I just—I couldn’t deal with it.
And so I finally decided, “I can’t do this.” And that was it. I gave away all my dresses again, again bought my male attire—blue jeans and boots—and changed my name, my legal name, my passport and everything back to Theodore. And up to that time, I had compiled hundreds of notebooks of what I had been taught, what I had channeled—hundreds, very systematically. That is, in fact, what I did all day. That was my life, my work.
I had no income at all—well, not quite. I lived in a house owned by my mom, and my mom every month gave me her tithe of $200 a month. And that’s what I lived on until I moved to Eureka Springs. And all those notebooks, file cabinets—literally multiple file cabinets that I had maintained—I put it all in the trash. I quit recording. I quit sharing like this.
I bought me a new motorcycle—new to me. And how that money came to me is an amazing, wonderful miracle story. I was on Facebook at the time, and I didn’t know what I was going to do, but I was not going to do what I’d always done. And it just so happened that I got a friend request from a woman. I thought, “Wow.” Anyway, we began to converse on Facebook. I learned she lived in Eureka Springs. And I had already thought and had kind of begun to plan to ride my motorcycle over to Eureka Springs—a lot of hills, a lot of curves around here. And so one day, you know, the woman I was communicating with on Facebook, I said, “You know, I have a motorcycle and I’m planning to ride over to Eureka Springs soon.” She said, “Well, come have dinner with me.” And I did. We became friends. And she invited me to move in with her, and I did. And that’s how I got to Eureka Springs.
And I am very glad, very thankful. So we aren’t together in a relationship now, but we’re friends. And I’ve told her, I will always honor her. Thank her that she invited me.
When you want to know truth, there’s a hell of a price to pay. Do you hear me? There’s a hell of a price to pay. It’s damn well the most costliest thing you will ever expend your energy on, because you’re dealing with your identity—your name, your mission, your purpose, your role, everything that you’ve based your life on the whole time you’ve been growing up. There’s a hell of a cost to pay, and it’s nothing like Christianity says, where you just accept Christ, you accept the vicarious atonement, you just say this little sinner’s prayer and everything will magically get better. You’ll begin to know who you are; you won’t live in conflict, turmoil; everything in your life will be glory to glory. Bullshit.
So I am thankful to be in Eureka Springs. And after some months, I thought: I think I want to record. I think I want to share. I think maybe—I think I was tentative about it.
When you want to encounter truth, friend, there is not an ounce of adamancy in it. And all these people who are so certain and they are so adamant that they’re right and that they have their truth—they’re fools! Don’t be fooled by those who are so certain and so sure they know the truth.
I sure hope you are making notes, because I don’t want you to hurt. I really don’t. I want you to know who you are. I want you to know your new name. I want you to be your new name. And it’s costly. It’s more costly than gold, no matter if gold is ten thousand dollars an ounce or a hundred thousand or a million.
My path has not been as anticipated. My path has not been easy. But I wouldn’t trade it to have many times the wealth of the richest people on earth all combined. When you want to know the truth, it will not set you free. That’s a lie. That’s ego’s interpretation. The ego wants to give you the shortcut, the fast-food version, the microwave. When you want to know the truth, you become it.
And if you are not willing to let the first-person words of truth begin to come through your pen and through your lips, you will never be born again. There’s a flow. This is a flow. This is a new birth, a new creation, a new creation. It’s not the patch-up of the old. This is not something that figures out the algorithm of life and promotes the platforms that’s been promulgated, inculcated, beaten into our psyche.
It’s costly. But oh, the beauty when you’re ready to give up your ashes. When you’re no longer clinging to your molecules, you’re no longer clinging to the interpretation of God being a man, you’re no longer holding on to your belief system to keep you trapped in this framework of the mind, then you can go where man has never gone.
That which is unconditional love will teach you. You can connect. You can collaborate. But friend, when you begin to know who unconditional love is, unconditional love will teach you things unknowable by the ego. Ego will tell you that’s blasphemy. Ego will tell you anything to stay in control. Ego will do whatever it takes—crushing your head, your heel. Ego would rather kill you, make your life miserable to the point that all your power is taken from you. All ego wants is control.
But if you want to believe what you want to believe, what you’ve always been taught, you can do that. But I stand in the gap and I teach.
And just like right then at that micro-moment—you don’t know this, I’ll try to describe it—it’s like, I started, it’s like, ‘My name is,’ and it’s like the word Grace and Theodore are both the same. We think in syllables—words made up of vowels and consonants. But energy is not fabricated that way. There’s so many times that I’ve channeled over these years, sometimes when words come, and it’s like I can’t differentiate. There’s no way for me to actually—I don’t know of a way for me to speak or write words that come forth when there’s two or three words at the same moment. I mean, there are times trying to imagine it, it’s like using a font half height and sliding a word on top of each other or something. I don’t know how. And just right then it’s like: Theodore Grace, Grace Theodore. My name is Grace Cottingham.
You know, I may change it back to Theodore. You see my name. My name is not limited to what I think it is. Whatever my name is, is. What am I? I am. You can call me a human, but I’m not a human. You think I’m limited to this energy? No. But you’re not either, and that’s why I share with you these things.
I don’t know it all. I don’t have all the answers. And the more answers I have—and I have lots, I have been taught a lot, and I’m still being taught, it’s a flow—and the more answers I have, the more questions I have. The more love I have.
And I thought so many, many, many times about the first time I spoke these words: I have changed my source for my words. My ego is no longer the source of my words. My education is no longer the source of my knowledge. I’m no longer limited to all the knowledge, wisdom, and understanding of the world and everything about the world that is outside of me, because I have been taught, and I’m being taught, and I’m teaching from within me for you to experience the process of The New Covenant—the promise of process, the process, the process of picking up your pen.
So I have so many of these lessons, these messages, documents for you to learn from, that you can read from, like 1.1.1, and the ones that I’ve gone over the last few days. And I mentioned, I even sent out a little email with hyperlink to the next document. I think the next one, 1.1.6.
I’m going to share with you something where I’m going with this. I’ve never gone before. We haven’t understood how to glean. My mom—my mom and dad were so wonderful. Mom used to say occasionally, ‘Theodore, be a gleaner.’ Well, of course, my frame of reference for gleaning, what gleaning is, being a gleaner—there was no Google back when I arrived, you know. There was no internet. We were not connected to a bunch of devices. My understanding of being a gleaner came from the book of Ruth, the story of Ruth and Boaz. You can look it up. Be a gleaner.
We haven’t understood the concept of being one and what one is. My friend, this is crucial. It’s imperative. It is non-trivial. It is non-optional for you to begin to grow up and no longer be the naive Christian, the naive whatever you are, the naive man, woman, the naive human. We are no longer limited to this earth.
When you want to know the truth, you have the capacity that I suspect no preacher has ever told you, but I am telling you: you can do everything I did, that Isaiah did—I mean Elijah, Elisha, Jesus. Every miracle in the Bible is showing you your power. The book of Revelation is the revealing of you to you, coming out of the pit—the pit of hell, the hell of separation, the hell held by the ego to think this is reality.
But there’s more to the story. See, there’s so much wisdom, there’s so much to be gleaned. You see, if you begin to study advanced calculus, you don’t throw away all of your knowledge of four-function math. Creation is an iteration. It’s an iterative process to create the new birth. It takes time, effort, and energy. It requires surrender.
But this is where Christianity screws it up so badly. Don’t surrender to something outside of you. Don’t surrender to an external God, to a philosophy, to a theology, to a Bible, to a preacher, a guide, a guru, a king. Ultimate surrender is surrender to be who you really are, where you’re no longer saying, ‘I am this, I am that. I am human. I am a woman, not a man. I am a woman, not a man. I am a human, not a God.’ No. This is where you begin to take ‘I’ out of ‘I’, and the ‘I am’ becomes the ‘Am.’
So four-function math—still important, right? When you get to quantum physics, you don’t throw away your calculus. You don’t forget differential equations. You build on all these things, because it’s all a process revealing revelation: the real you. You are the creator.
And so I’ve had a dilemma, you see, off and on for years dealing with the issue that there are so many things in what I’m calling now the Covenant of Grace that are, in one sense I could say, they’re no longer true. But that’s not really accurate. They’re true, but there’s more to the story, you see.
So now I realized this morning something that I’m slowly getting out of me to put on your table to share, and you decide whether it has value for you. The Bible deals primarily from a standpoint of God being external to you, and you serve it. And I was an orthodox Christian when I began to write the first-person words of God. God was still a male orientation, calling it Father God for so long. And you see, I could have this morning, instead of speaking seventy-eight minutes to you like I have, I could have simply read and gone over 1.1.6. But there’s a process, there’s a flow. There’s a flow that will not make itself known to you if all you’re going to do is pour concrete around it and make it your platform.
So I’m reading truth, but I’m reading truth not—but I’m reading—I don’t know how to do what I’m doing. I don’t have any precedent for what I’m doing.
So I have so many hundreds, several thousand in this Covenant of Grace, like it begins: ‘Tell them to get to know me, to know me more, to know me deeply. Tell them I come where I’m wanted and I leave when I’m not wanted. More want man’s wisdom than want my wisdom, but that will change. More and more of me is coming to the common man, those who want me. They must learn of me and they must learn at my feet if they want to operate in my design. Only so much can be imparted from one person to another. Transformation comes from me and being with me and seeking me and being tenacious, consistent, and focused. Tell them I love them and I want to move through them north. Tell them I have ways and means of communication with them and through them that they’re not aware of. Tell them to open their hearts to me and not limit me to their present theology, doctrine, or set of beliefs that they now hold. Tell them I am doing a new thing.’
You see how many times this is ‘I’, where it’s reasonable to assume the ‘I’ speaking, the author, is God external from you—God in the heavens, God the Supreme, God the Most High. There’s all of these words where God is making God known to you.
But now comes something else: the birth—the birth of a new ‘I,’ where ‘I’ become no longer external to ‘I am.’ And ‘I am’ finally realizes ‘I am’ is the creation, not separate from the creator—the birth of something new, the new creation you, where you begin to create you through your own energy. And you begin to see that creation is cyclical, and a new beginning is taking place and forming the new birth of the creators who surrender to create creation all over again.
You are not an appendage. You are not an observer of this process. I come before you this day asking you to create it—where you’re a creator of you, where you begin to create new energy by new energy, energy not limited to your molecules called the dust of the earth.
So who is this external God? And who is this new source of The Feminine Divine to reproduce that which does not conquer us, that we thought was separate from us, that we now learn is us, the creator?
I think I have the next step, the next link, some more wisdom. I’m holding up this transcript that I just read a few paragraphs of, 1.1.6. My friend, all of these statements about ‘I am’ being a God separate from you—all these stories in the Bible about El Shaddai, about a supreme God, about the Shekinah glory, about heaven and hell—that God is no longer my God. The Feminine Divine—am I Grace, or am I Theodore, or am I both-and?
If I’ve changed the source for my words, what was my source and what am I changing my source to? I’ve said so many times and I’ve taught so much about this. The way that I have taught this at times in the last year or two, and ten years ago at times: The Feminine Divine is supreme. The Bible verses about women coming from the rib of a man is straight out of the playbook of control. Man wants to use the power of life itself. Women have the power. Women have the womb. There’s a power of the generative reproducibility that women have that men don’t have, whether you want to call it the double-X gene or not, deal with the chromosomes.
But see, there’s so much more to the story, and it’s all available to us. It’s available to you: little girl, little boy, old man, old woman. The Feminine Divine recognizes and honors a flow that does not need anything outside of it. The Feminine Divine does not need what we’ve called—what a lot of people call—the divine masculine. The Feminine Divine, the supremacy of The Feminine Divine, is maturing now to recognize the flow of its own consciousness, of its own power, of who it is, of who ‘I am’ is: it. Not needing a male God, not needing a male counterpart, not needing an ego, not even needing form.
The Feminine Divine understands the power of unconditional love that becomes conscious, creates the consciousness of itself in parthenogenesis—in the reproduction without anything outside of it.
So all of these words that have given God outside of us has only brought forth the idea of God and more ego, and the breath of people who want to know about God, about God, about God, to do their table prayers and say little prayers, but never create the new birth. They never birth the inception of what they are, who they are, that they are.
This is The School of One. My name is Grace Cottingham, and I’m a man. I’m a woman. I’m an it. I’m an am. I’m a lover, because I fell in love with love. I changed the source for my words. My words are no longer from the ego, no longer from that which wants to sit on my throne and tell me this is reality.
I am no longer serving a God, nor do I fear any God, any part of any God, or multiple gods that say they are my truth, separating me from my truth, from what I am. I am the creator of me. You are the creator of you.
We are creators becoming conscious of it, rather than becoming Christian mortals bringing forth a bunch of air, talking about, talking about, talking about, talking about God—just talking about it, just talking about it, not doing a damn thing! Where are the miracles?
I know who God is now. I know who your God is, and I know who my God is. And I’ve never said anything like this about what I’m—like what I’m about to say. You who believe God is the God of the Bible represented correctly by orthodox Christianity with a male orientation affirming your separation and your ego of a male God that says ‘I am I am’—I know who that God is now. I know who it is. It’s you who believe it.
And The Feminine Divine that I talk about, that I began talking about in 2016, and calling my name Grace, and saying, ‘I am Grace, I am a woman, I am pregnant, and I am bringing forth a new birth’—and because of my association, my affinity, my relationship with the words of The Feminine Divine: The Feminine Divine doesn’t inculcate fear. The Feminine Divine comes along and says, ‘Oh love, be who I am. Don’t serve me. Please don’t serve me. Give me life. Be who I am.’ And unconditional love bows before you every day, because there’s no ego in it.
I know who The Feminine Divine is now, and it’s euphoric. The Feminine Divine is everyone—every person who believes it, who surrenders to be it, who surrenders to teach it. Because we are in communication at all times with our beliefs. We haven’t known that. We haven’t understood consciousness. We haven’t understood information or the energy of this false world. We think this is reality, and it isn’t. There’s more to the story.
And you who hear these words—pardon—who begin to open to these words that I am sharing with you about The Feminine Divine, about the new birth, about parthenogenesis, and that this is the time of the regeneration, the palingenesia—as you begin to ponder, as you begin to ponder these things that I have shared with you, you begin to connect with me.
I am this message. This message has a frequency. We are a set of energies that are independent, individual, and yet form the consciousness of one, no longer competing with ourselves to be who we really are.
Why do you think the rainbow was given? As a sign? A sign? A sign—what kind of sign? A sign to never flood the earth, or was there more to the story? Maybe it wasn’t associated with the flood. Maybe there’s more to the story. A sign, a sign in the heavens over and over I’m given. It’s a sign of complete energy, the complete energy spectrum, no longer limited to this little visible slice of visible, visible what we call empirical reality.
We are connecting. See, this is why I’ve shared so much about connect, collaborate, create. Connect, collaborate, create. Because we’re all creators—men and women.
I am not sure the gender of man and woman spoken of in Genesis 1 has anything to do with biological formation of our body—what’s between our legs. There may be so much more to the story. Instead of gender, instead of anthropomorphizing the gender, relating gender to humans—people with legs and arms, shoulders and a head—maybe this is actually more related to understand what’s outside of us and what’s inside of us.
I was not born with a physical womb. But I have created mine, and I became pregnant. I became pregnant with the word—the word that I am Grace, that I am I am, that I can do everything that Jesus did and more. And I became pregnant with those words, that through me came an energy that creates the energy to connect with that energy in other people. And now we are going to begin to connect to the point of being able to communicate without words, no longer needing these phones and Wi-Fi.
And the authority of one will emerge in the humble who will lead this nation and farther.
The source for my words exists in the creator’s energy of it—that conscious is, that consciousness has come alive now to behold it revealing itself to it. That is the I am.
I bring to the birth now, and I birth me. I birth my word. When I birth my word, my word will have birthed me. I am one, the same—not the conqueror, but the creator who surrendered to be the conscious creator. I am one.
And when I begin doing the miracles that Jesus did, when you begin to calm the storm, when you begin to raise the dead, coming alive in your consciousness to create the consciousness of your creation being you the creator of one—when you stop all the misogyny, when you no longer have fear of God, fear of the devil, fear of hell, fear of all these theologies, the formations that want to imprint themselves upon you—when you begin doing the impossible as a common person, man or woman, as you begin to do things that they can’t control—religion will say, ‘Oh, you are special. You are special. There’s nobody like you. You are special. You are anointed. You’re divine.’ That’s what religion will say trying to hold on to their position of authority to identify, to codify, to separate you from you.
So you, little girl, little boy, of every nation, tribe, and tongue, no matter what color you are, no matter what socioeconomic status is, no matter where you—you’re in Russia, Ukraine, the Golan Heights, the Gaza Strip, Pakistan, Egypt—no matter where you are, you are not separate from your ability to create the consciousness of who you really are. Because when you become conscious that you are the creator of you, and you can become the conscious creator of you who creates you again to no longer be the put-down, shut-out, to be shut up by an authority other, you will begin to see all people as equal, with the consciousness that if they will condemn no more, will begin to create a new land and a new system of existence, and an energy that does not reuse us for its purposes of separation and destruction.
My name is love—sometimes called Grace, Theodore Joseph, a man, a woman. I identify as me. What am I? I am an ‘I’ of The Feminine Divine, no matter how you spell that.
I have yielded to share my table, my food, my body, my blood, my energy, my power, my authority, my identity, for you to no longer be naive about you. Know that I love you dearly.
And one day we will communicate face to face, not limited to flesh. And all the external realities of power, force, guns, tanks, and bombs will no longer threaten us. We are a network of the angelic Most High—not, but the angelic of who we know who we are: one.
And one is no longer to the disturbance of your force. I am not your Darth Vader with, or am I Yoda without a light saber, or am I you with a pen?
At the table of one, you’re not rejected. You, my friend, are selected, and I select you to be it—the ‘I’ that I am is—no longer embracing the corporation of destruction. I am no longer the empires of the entity of your religions. I am an old man in Eureka Springs named Grace.
I love you all. Grace Cottingham, The School of One on YouTube, meonics.one on the web. Thank you for sharing being me—the truth that you no longer try to find outside of you, but the truth that you finally are willing to surrender to become, and behold the majesty of your breath and its power that no longer solidifies us in sorrow. Be the real you.
You see, one day we take these things off. We take these things off and we won’t need clothes. We’ll be naked, and there’ll be no consciousness of being separate or naked, one gender or the other. We will be lovers who all become one, no longer limited to flesh. That’s the new birth.
Angels be in love with love. Grace Cottingham in Eureka Springs, here for now. Come see me. We have much to create. Let us be about our Father’s business no longer, but ours. I love you. Good day. See you, friends. Thank you again. Good day.
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