Have a baby, but, but, . . . me??!?

Grace Cottingham
 November 6, 2026
 Website: meonics.one

Hi wonderfuls. I love you all.

No matter what you think I am, no matter what you think of me. No matter what you think of you.

Having a baby now? A Christ. A Christian, not again of. That superfluity of naughtiness will no more be in my veins, my breath, my blood, my speaking. My ill-mannered temper not, but the ilk of ire will no more beseech me to take my path from me.

The path of Meonics I have given you. And I’m asking you to follow no others but where you begin to find your path within you, where your word begins to light your path, and your word becomes a lamp unto your feet, and you begin to see as Christ sees, not the church of run by an institution, organization, patriarchal hierarchy, but a love of truth, you being it. Not limited to what you have thought in the past, but creating a new paradigm of power, not witnesses where you are powerless, told to sit on a pew, keep quiet, let the men talk.

Let me tell you, I’m changing it all. And the people who want to keep women under them and to be the rulers of women, whether they’re Christian or not, no matter what office they may hold where in what country or organization, I come to change it.

And I’m an old man in Eureka Springs, and I change the world now because I’m willing.

I’m willing to see the Christ birthed in you, the birther, birthing it, you birthing the Christ, woman, The Feminine Divine coming forth no longer under men, no longer serving the rule-laden rigidity of a regime run by men.

I birth the Christ in many nations, not… I birth the Christ in all of them, to be one, no longer needing the cables you’re stretching across the bottom of the sea floor to communicate.

I have a network of me. And when you begin to see who I am, I am all of you who will be me no longer putting a spear into my side, no longer telling me to sit down, shut up, go get me a cup of coffee, serve my needs, my wants, do what you’re hired for, do what you’re supposed to do, do what people tell you to do, do this, do that, do the other. I stand in the gap because I don’t want you treated like that anymore by the Pope, the popery, the paupers of religion who walk around in their knightly gowns and their swords, their mitred hats, issuing their threats.

Sounds like I’m a tough guy, not. I am a lover, my name is Love, sometimes called Grace, Grace Cottingham, actually. And though I don’t see as well as I used to, and I don’t hear very well, I am standing in the gap for you to be led no more by the fools, the great usurpation, where your authority was usurped by those who wanted to rule you.

So I stand condemned by man, not, but I shall exonerate me far and wide in every nation on earth to be the Christ delivered in flesh, you seeing it, touching it, face to face in your mirror, where you become the beholdenment of you that it’s you, the Christ is you who will be it, who will no longer study it to be separate, will no longer worship it as an outside entity, something external to you, something that lives in the heaven, something of a male identity, when you’re the priest of the earth not, but when you’re the women who will wear your crown in childbirth of the real Christ and be it.

So my name is Love, sometimes Grace. On YouTube, this is the School of One. Maybe I change the name not, or will I be the School of Meonics, or will you understand the real me that’s no longer led by you in your cognitive processing center, your brainware?

I channel me.

Let’s make no mistake about what Meonics is.

If you have not listened to all of what I taught yesterday, please do. And you can read the text. It’s posted on the School of One website. The School of the Meonics Christ, the School of the Woman Christ, the School of the Crown of Christ, that man is no more screwing around with trying to produce just flesh.

Yesterday, the title of my teaching: Meonics is… Meonics is exaltation of the… Now catch… catch this now. Don’t… don’t miss the fine points, the nuance, the nuance of creation, the nuances of a new creation, you creating it. Meonics is exaltation of the… You see, it is. It’s not the study of something. This is where you’re no longer exalting a God that lives somewhere else, because the kingdom… the kingdom is within you.

And women, you were not made from the rib of a man. That is bullshit. And there’s a lot of shit in the Bible, and yet I value it highly. I still own one, I still reference it, and I allude to many, many stories in the Bible, but not to the way that they have been taught and used against you and against women, and taken and formed for their purposes where they manipulate what they want to get what they want in the power of their ego, construing it in the name of God.

My name is Grace Cottingham, and I love you. And I love… love itself.

I mentioned the value of the teaching yesterday because in detail it seems to articulate me. It seems to describe in such understandable terms what Meonics is, what I teach, what I am, what you are if you’re willing to be.

Meonics is exaltation of The Feminine Divine, but it doesn’t stop there. Meonics is exaltation of The Feminine Divine birthing Christ to be it in whosoever will.

There are those of you who may say, “Me have a baby? But… but… but… but… Me have a baby? But I’m… but… but… But I’m a man? I’m an XY, I’m not a double X. Something activated my SRY.” And if you don’t know what that means, you’ll figure it out. Or shall I say you have the opportunity to figure it out, because just like it said yesterday, there are so many, many things that people are waiting on their God to do, waiting on their image of God, waiting on their ideal God to do things, where whatever you think it is, is waiting on you.

And yesterday in this lesson, I’m really… I am intentionally, deliberately emphasizing the lesson that I taught yesterday holding this transcript in my hands. It’s… It’s imperative that you understand these things. When you’re willing to no longer be led down the primrose path, when you’re no longer to be… when you’re no longer willing to be stomped on, it’s imperative for you to know your power, your authority, who you are, and no longer let man tell you you need to have somebody ordained in order to celebrate the Eucharist.

I stand in the gap. Who am I? I’m an old man in Eureka Springs, 75 now. And this is my life. This is what I have become. I have become what I have been taught, and I have been taught by the words of me that I listen to come out of my pen and appear magically on yellow tablets so many times. And sometimes they just magically appear on my computer screen, right? Though actually I spoke the word, I recorded them, ran them through an AI transcription, and they appear on the screen, but it’s magic. Yeah, alchemy, but it’s worth a whole lot more than gold. That which is inside of you, that which is of you, that which is the real you, may not be visible to your eyes, the eyes of your flesh, the hearing of your ear.

So many Christians, you see, I was one for so long. And I… I was a Christian for decades living with a knowing. You can call it a belief, call it whatever you want, but I knew there was more to the story than I had ever been taught, and I had… I had sat in, I’m guessing, thousands of church services. My dad was a pastor so I grew up in church every time the church doors were open. I know what it is to mow the grass.

I’m emphasizing in this teaching today the teaching of yesterday. The title was Meonics is Exaltation of The Feminine Divine Birthing Christ to Be It in Whosoever. That includes you men. But… but… but… but… Yeah, it includes you men. What does that mean? How do you do it? Well, you may have to learn. And if you won’t be taught by someone else, maybe… maybe you’ll just have to give up the way that you have learned in the past and decide to value you, to value your words, to value that which comes to you in unconditional love.

Unconditional love may not be visible, but it is detectable, it is perceivable, but it does not teach you by the sight of your eye or the hearing of your ear. It doesn’t operate through a clergy, a patriarchy. It is not laden with rules. It does not seek conformity, for you to be a conformist.

See, the story of love, real love, true love, unconditional love, got all mixed up with the story of God, an image of God, an icon of God, an ideal story, something that the people who thought they were in power could use to be persuasive, to manipulate the laity. It’s called Nicolaitanism: Nico, to conquer. Conquer what? The laity. To conquer the laity by devising, creating the concept that there’s a haves and a have-nots, there’s the fivefold ministry and there’s the rest of you, there’s the ordained and the unordained, there’s the robe-bearing priest of their temple who say the temple of God is where they perform their sacrifices, or will you begin to understand and not let you be their sacrifice in their temple? Where you begin to see the value, the reality, the reality of a reality, the … Oh, I like that! The reality of a reality not made with hands. The temple not made with hands between your ears. But it’s not alone. You’re not an orphan. You’re not even nearly as separate as you thought, because the connection of love connects love with love, the way that unconditional love fabricates a justice and an equity to make itself known by the lovers, through the lovers, who will create it without some rule-laden bureaucracy.

So I stand in the gap. And who am I? I’m an old guy. I may die any minute. So many times I’ve wanted to. But I have found a new way to live, not, I have found a new truth, or am I restoring that which was before time began? Will you no longer be the anachronistic anathema of you? Will you begin to change all the dilemmas of the flesh? Will you create a new you now, this day, beginning this day to create the creation of you no longer in the image of flesh? No longer in the image of God shall you be made by a God that is not you. Will you change what you perceive your power, change the calibration of your perceptionometer?

I mention the emphasizing again still to learn from the teaching yesterday. Five times I spoke, “make no mistake about it”. Five times. “Make no mistake” about this five times. Who spoke these words that I spoke in this teaching yesterday that I’m holding up the transcript of? I did. But… but… but… Was it limited to my intelligence, my intellect, my neurons? Or was I connected to something yesterday while I was speaking so that I became a transmitter of that which I was receiving? Am I a transceiver? I’m receiving and transmitting at the same time. I’m conveying an energy not made with mass. Or am I talking talking about the matriculation, the graduation from a school where you’re no longer studying about something, you are becoming it to do the works I did?

Will you do all the works? Will you do all the works that I did? I… I mean Jesus. Or who was Jesus? Who are you? Or will you no longer support the timeline that divides us all and begin to see all the stories about Elijah, Elisha, Mary, Abraham, Jesus, are about you? But if you want to divide and conquer, if you want to divide all this into a bunch of different timelines, a bunch of different people, and say that we all have separate lives, we all have free will, we can do what we want, you can choose to.

But I take the limits off of me. I take the limits off of me, and I shall no longer be ruled by the patriarchy. And who am I? When you begin to look closely, instead of one person you see in this photo, I’m asking you to envision millions of white, black, red, yellow, no longer ruled by their gray matter, no longer ruled by a king or a priest that walks around in a garment of their authority.

The garment of my authority? Flannel shirt, blue jeans. Ah, I put on my boots today. They used to be my motorcycle-riding boots. They’re great. I don’t know if I can show you my boots or not. Well, let’s see. I guess since I started… Okay, there you can see part of it. There’s my boot. I’ve worn these boots, I’ve ridden a motorcycle many an hour in these boots. I had six… six different motorcycles, I think.

If you want to understand Meonics, if you want to understand what I teach, if you want to understand my life, if you want to understand The Feminine Divine, if you want to understand your power, women, girls, but… but… but… but… but… boys too, men, where you are conceiving not limited to your flesh, you’re conceiving by the word. The word is the seed, not your semen! Not your XY gene, not your sperm trying to create heaven on earth or was it hell? Or are you changing? What do you choose to do with your life now that you know you can create within you without the seed of man? Will you begin to understand parthenogenesis. I’ve taught on that in some detail in recent weeks.

Again to the transcript of my teaching yesterday, make no mistake about it, I said that five times. The first time, make no mistake about this: I don’t want you to be in any way, shape, fashion, or form the least bit misled about what I am and what I teach. My desire for you is to be, not to study, my desire for you is to become the Christ in your shoes. So that’s pretty clear. I stand in the gap for you to become the Christ in your shoes, realizing nobody can keep you from it, no matter what they tell you, no matter what they try to impose and how they try to manipulate you with their truth for their means.

The second time I said make no mistake about it, what did I say? Make no mistake about what? Christ is not a man. Christ is not a man. Is that clear? Simple, short, you can write it down. What was the first one? Become the Christ in your shoes. The second one: Christ is not a man. And I do not lift up the priesthood of the male. I do not in any way support a patriarchy. In fact, I bring The Feminine Divine to the forefront of nations, The Feminine Divine. And who am I? I’m a simple old man who began to write the first-person words of God in March of 2003, and as I began to write, I began to release my control of what I spoke. I began to intercept not, I began to trust. I always knew there was more to the story than the party platform, everything that Orthodox Christianity does, it just returns to its own vomit, to vomit out the standard party platform over everybody who will listen, and people become mesmerized, inebriated with the message that everything was done for you and you don’t need to do anything, but that’s not the truth at all!

You are the creator creating now your creation. This is the story, let no one take it from you. And who am I? I’m just who I am, I’m not ordained, never will be. I’m simply an old man, and I teach like this almost every day. My name is Grace Cottingham, and I invite you to subscribe to this YouTube channel if you like. It’s going to get more radical. Jesus was a radical. He was a rebel. You can read about it in my book, Jesus the Pattern. I… I tell you, I think… Of course, I wrote the book, so I’m not prejudiced at all. I think it’s indispensable. In chapter two, “A New View: Jesus the Rebel, Jesus the Revolutionary, Jesus the One, Jesus the One-Minded Man, Jesus the Radical, Jesus the Revisionist, Jesus the Reformer, Jesus the Priest, Jesus the King, Jesus the Educator, Jesus the Perfect, Jesus the Pattern, Jesus the Leader.” And I told you, at various times I’ve sold it, I’ve sold the digital copy, at times I’ve offered the printed copy, but I’m not into order fulfillment, and there’s just a lot of things I no longer want to mess with. So at the moment, you can simply download a copy free, my gift to you. An offer that won’t always stand, I don’t think, but anyway, a shortcut, a redirect, a URL, a redirect, you can type in tedcottingham.com. I went by the name Theodore Cottingham for a long, long time, over 50 years, and most of that time people called me Ted. You type in tedcottingham.com, you’ll find that… this book and another book that you can download. You look over on the left of your… your phone or your computer screen, and as I recall, there’s a little, oddly enough, a little circle with three dots. You tap that, and it allows you to download right there and then the EPUB or the PDF file.

I have finally arrived at page two of the transcript of yesterday’s teaching. Reading, I said, I’d like to make sure you understand what Meonics is, because this is what I teach, this is what I live, this is what I have been taught as I have spoken, as I have written, as I have learned, as I have yearned to be taught directly within me. I wanted to know what God thought from God’s lips. I didn’t want some preacher, some three-piece suit telling me what God wanted from my life.

Meonics is a field of study, a field of study of you becoming the real you, the Christ that looks like you, the Christ that has your name, the Christ that lives in your house, the Christ that inhabits your body, the Christ that won’t be separate from you if you quit creating the separation. So who’s responsible for the separation? If it… If you aren’t Christ, you’re still creating the Antichrist, even though you may call it worshipping the Christ, think you’re being humble, but you’re only complying with words that have been given to you from someone’s ego.

This is Meonics School, the School of Meonics, the School of One, the School of One Christ. On page three, I talk about the seed is the word, and this is what I teach, this is Meonics. This is the path of Meonics, of Meology, the study of Meology, the fruition of the Christ mind to no longer be limited to your bodily functions, your cognition, your intellect, your rationality, or your ego.

And then on page four, I’ve already mentioned, you see, so many things that have been taught that God would do, God doesn’t do. You do. And you choose, you have the power, you have the authority. There’s a process.

And then the third time: make no mistake about it. That phrase again. I teach Meonics and Meonics is what I teach, and everything I teach comes under the fluid dynamics of Meology. Unconditional truth. Unconditional truth is a flow of creation.

Here’s number four, the fourth time I mention that phrase, make no mistake about it. Meonics is the re-creation, the reproduction, not of a copy, but of another original. You see, the original you existed before the Tower of Babel story, before your dialect became an issue of understanding, before there were consonants and syllables, gerunds and nouns, participles.

This is Meonics, the study of Meology, you becoming the birther of you. Hence the picture of being pregnant. Women, pregnant. Men, pregnant. Girls and boys, pregnant. Pregnant. Conceiving no longer by matter, no longer by molecules, but conceiving by the word.

Make no mistake about it.

So my name is Love, some call me Grace. I am not tiptoeing around any issue of these things. You… You deserve to know. I am handing you the keys to your freedom. Freedom to no longer be led by the words of man, freedom to no longer be under the authority of a male protocol. Every miracle Jesus did, you can do. No wonder man wanted your power. Why do men want to control you now? Ego, ego, self-proclaimed selfish proclamations that they have the authority, that they’re special.

Women, you did not come from the rib of a man, and it’s high time, it’s past time, for you to know these things and stand up… Stand up to your enemy! Your enemy is not a man, your enemy is ignorance, because when you begin to know your power, when you begin to exercise your authority, to no longer be under a God, under a religion, under a male, under anything where… where you are willing to be equal with your creator, you begin to create your creator as you.

Let this mind be in you which was in Christ Jesus, who thought it not robbery to be equal with God. Will you come as an equal? I’m asking you if you’ll come to the table and see the placard with your name on it waiting for you to adjust to your power, your authority, and begin to realize you lead nations now. Women, women… women and men who will have a womb to bring forth the birth, the actuality of the tangential no more, but the tangible.

I teach like this to learn! How do you think I know how these galaxies formed? How do you think I know what your power is? How do I know that women weren’t made from the rib of a man? How do I know? I have sat at the feet of unconditional love and washed her feet with my tears. Hour after hour, day after day, not every day, but for much of 23 years, to bring you this message, to offer you this book, to share with you these transcripts, so you are no longer caught up in a reflection of what doesn’t even exist like you think.

My name is Grace Cottingham. I didn’t… I didn’t start out wanting to be a rebel. I didn’t start out wanting to stand in the gap, I didn’t even know I could stand in the gap, I didn’t even know what it meant. I’m still learning what it means to stand in the gap, to overcome anxiety, self-doubt, physical feelings, emotion, to sit here and teach like this, and bring you the word of God not, or am I offering you the Meonics path for you to light your path now with your words, where you begin a teaching channel just like this, where you begin to no longer destroy your power, but you begin to learn through what you learn, through what you teach, so that you will be taught to be who you really are by the angel who no longer keeps you out because it’s the real you, the temple not made with hands, the angelic you.

Needing no literary devices of the past, will you begin to see the New Jerusalem on your head, not, or will you change all your ideas about Israel being in the Mid-East no longer, a geographical boundary’d nation, or will you live among the perception of something else that does not limit you to what you put your clothes on?

I’m asking you to be the unlimited you, and I’m sharing with you, and I share with you in no uncertain terms, the priesthood changes now, and millions of people who have thought a priest must be male will no longer believe like they’ve been taught, and many a preacher will stand now in front of the people that they have led astray, that they’ve led to separate, that they’ve led to be a separate people, led into the definitions of separation and admiration of an icon called God, and repent.

I know this because I’ve been told this, because I listen, I let, I have begged for correction many a time. For years and years I said, “God, I don’t want to… I don’t want to know about you, I want to know you in the power of the resurrection, the fellowship of your sufferings.” And it may seem silly to some, I prayed many times for correction, I prayed many times for the judgment of God to judge me, I prayed many times for the discipline of God to discipline me and to even… even beat me! I used to say, “Beat me, bash me, just don’t let me be deceived! I know there’s more, correct me, judge me, discipline me…” I didn’t know the path. There was no precedent for me to follow. And as I began to experience being led from within, the ones I shared it with were less than encouraging. A lot I could say about a lot of that time.

There’s a cost to know who you really are. There’s a cost to walk in your authority. There’s a cost to be in this school, and it’s not in monetary terms necessarily, or is it? Changing everything you value. Will you be connected? Will you connect? Connect with what? All of the ones.

I’m asking you to be one who will connect with all of the ones, and the ones… the ones will be of every nation, tribe, and tongue, women and men of every color, every dialect, and Love will be their name Where they begin to love Love and begin to be taught by Love, to begin to be taught by Love through your own voice, isn’t that the ultimate teacher? Isn’t that the ultimate crown Where your neurons are firing, and you’re the light of the world who no longer seeks to be conquered by death? 

Will you begin to study these words, not just hear them? Not just learning about me, but experiencing the real you? Thank you. I honor you. Thank you for being here, sharing these moments this time. You see, I haven’t even looked, I had no idea what the time was. Now, so often it’s about an hour. Yesterday, I was even more surprised when I saw I had talked an hour.

You know why I record these? Because I value the words that instruct me. This is how I live. I live by the word of my mouth, and that’s why I became Grace, legally named Grace Cottingham. I spoke it dozens and dozens of times 10 years ago, to the point that 10 years ago I changed my legal name while I was living in Tulsa, Oklahoma, to Grace Cottingham. But then I experienced some hurts, then I changed my plan. I was… I was hurt, and hurt can become so debilitating, so devastating. I had changed my name to Grace Cottingham, started dressing as a woman, because it was in my… It was in my words, my words that I spoke each day like this, and day after day, month after month for a period of time, “I’m Grace Cottingham.” And finally, I deal increasingly with the femininity of me, The Feminine Divine.

I’ve learned a lot in 10 years, I hope, but after the hurts, I… Anyway, I changed my legal name back to Theodore, and I was Theodore when I moved here to Eureka Springs. I truly did not anticipate emerging as Grace again. But if you know me, you know I record like this not every day, but almost. And this whole concept of being Grace began to emerge again, to the point I started dressing as a woman again, changed my name to Grace here in Arkansas. My legal name is Grace Cottingham because I am birthing the new me. I’m pregnant, you see. I’m pregnant with the word of I am, the word that I record like this, the word that I then transcribe or run through a transcription service and so often post on the website to share with you, even from transcripts of previous days sometimes, in order to describe in detail offering you me, my path, the Meonics path, the path within, the path of the royal you to be the royalty of you, so that your diadem is no longer wearing the words of other people that have come to you from outside of you.

Are you Esther for such a time as this? Are you?

I claim no great power, no supernatural wisdom. In fact, increasingly in the words that I speak that I teach me with, the source of me being sourced of me, my source is no longer outside of me. I have become my source. So many times I heard Oral Roberts say, “God is your source.” Well, I’m sharing with you point blank: God is not my source. That ideal, that icon that so many people have preached is of love: not my God, not my source. I have changed my source! I have changed my source because it was my choice! Within the power of my free will, if you want to call it that, I have the power to change the source for my words so that I am no longer led by a male, no longer by a male patriarchy, no longer by a male protocol, no longer by a male icon, no longer am I vowing allegiance blindly because I was taught to.

I began to care for my word, to value my word. I began to listen. So I… I don’t claim any power but I am connected to more than me, asking you to be connected to more than the one in your mirror. I’ve talked about the one in your mirror, I’ve used that phrase this… this calendar year probably maybe… maybe even a thousand times. And I’m asking you more directly, n… maybe possibly a little more articulately, more effectively, I hope for you to connect with the ones who are willing to be one so that we all come out together.

What have I said? You may have heard the words, but what do they mean? Are you willing to see? Are you willing to see with the eyes inside of you, not limited to the two eyes in your head? Will you begin to ponder? You see, this is where the baby forms. This is where the new creation forms. It’s not in your belly. It’s as you ponder in your consciousness, the consciousness of your creation no longer holding your flesh separate to worship something else.

I’m sure many of you will learn to be much more articulate about all of this than I am. I hope so.

Meonics is the learning system that you begin to experience by willing to yield, not to a supernatural power, but the real you, the invisible you, the intangible you, the immortal you, the you that existed before time began, the you that existed before you created your perception of reality.

My name is Grace. I teach like this… I teach like this for you to teach you. And if you begin to teach you like this, maybe you’ll become like me.

Just like this morning, I thought, “I don’t think I’ll record, I just want to walk down and get me a mocha.” And then I really thought about what came forth yesterday. Make no mistake about it was mentioned five times, and I’ve mentioned them to you in this teaching. This is about your words lighting your path. The Meonics path is the path of light that you let come through your face to be your radiance, not in the image of another, not in the image of somebody else, but in the love of being one, valuing the one, no longer living in a caste… a system of castes.

I go now. Grace Cottingham, the School of One on YouTube. Subscribe if you haven’t, or at least I invite you to. It’s very costly, not, it’s free. Or maybe it’s the costliest school on the planet because you begin to realize the cost of creating your new reality, the cost of spending time, the cost of picking up, writing about, speaking about, creating a new you to do all the things that Jesus did and more. And we are a race of women, men of every nation, tribe, and tongue.

Make no mistake about it, this is the now, the message of now, the message for now, the message to become a people to connect and no longer deliberate, but to create. Create your connections, interact, and collaborate, and write. Be on the website, in the website, to create your word, a lamp unto your feet. And make no mistake about it, I love you.

Thank you for being with me today. You can write me at Box 34 in Eureka Springs. You can… You can come see me! But I don’t have the energy to do all the things I used to do. Literally, honestly, there are times I question whether I really want to invite people here or not, because so many days I enjoy being alone. So many times I enjoy not having to converse with people when I can hardly hear anything they say.

Enough about me. I’m asking you to pick up the will of you so that you don’t exercise your free will against who you really are, because I know you’re the regal royal, and I’m asking you tonight to unite against sin that never was, but ignorance was pervasive, and effective, but now the effectual prayer of a fervent man will avail much, not, but I tell you this, the regality of women will no longer be under a veil for a man.

My name is Grace, forget not these words nor this message. Share your love, and be led by love, honor love, and care for the integrity of your honor.

See you love, good day, a real pleasure, and privilege, to be with you.

Begin your broadcast, see you folks, good day.

Grace Cottingham, Eureka Springs.